Last Week!

This is my last week of college! So many thoughts are going through my brain right now! It seems like only yesterday I was moving into Day Hall as a freshman. But literally, where did all the time go???? This past weekend was pretty epic! I got to spend a lot of time ...well in Narnia.... but after that..... with my Senior friends. I look around at them and realize how much I love all these people. Some of them I know I'll still see all the time. But this is where we start splitting off, starting our loves all over the world. It will never be the same. I won't see them while on a phoebes coffee run, I'll never have Franco's in the Sutton before dance, pre-gaming before Marathon..... hmmm sigh

I have no idea where I am living next month. I have no idea where i'll be in 6 months. It's pretty terrifying, yet very liberating. I have been looking forward  to this move since I was 16 years old. In a month I'll be all settled in my new life, being a NYC gal! AAAH!

I need more nice clothes, I can't dress like a slub in the city.

xoxo

A

Why I have anger issues

This was my Halloween.

7:45 am: Woke up late as usual, scrambled to get all my life together for the day

8:15 am: Left the apartment to try to get to Ballet on time

8:25 am: JUST MADE IT!

10:00 am: 2nd Ballet class. Everyone is dressed up YAY!.... except my knee is killing me the whole time! greaaat!

11:20 am: Lose my Iphone.... I literally have a panic attack... Finally find it in the lower depths of my backpack.... but now I have already missed the bus and have to run up the hill, with my bad knee, to get to class by 11:40

11:48 am: Walk into History class.... oops

12:40 pm: NEED STARBUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1:00pm: Costume Fitting for "Spikey".... more padding and spikes have been added.... can I dance in it? Guess we will find out soon

1:15pm: Work in the office

2:15pm: sit out of Ballet class #3 and ice my knee... not a happy camper

3:30pm: Leave the stage to go to my Doc appt. in Camillus...15 minute drive

3:50pm: get lost on the way and am late for my appt.

4:10pm: finally get seen and the nice people are gonna help me fix my knee... let's all cross our fingers that it aint a stress fracture

5:00pm: leave doctor's... driving through Camillus back to apartment when I pass an Auto Zone. "Yay" i think, " I need a new headlight! I'll just stop by and pick one up and flirt with the boy so he will install if for me."

5:15pm: Cute boy tries to install my headlight. He asks me to pop the hood to check and see if it's all in correctly... I then try to close the hood... IT WONT CLOSE! THEN THE HOOD CORD COMES OUT IN MY HAND!!!!!!!!!!! My hood won't close.

5:45: I buy bungee cords and random (no longer calling him cute boy cause he broke my car) boy bungees it so it will only half open. "You better drive 10 miles under the speed limit..hehe" random boy says.... I almost kill him.

6:00pm: I get lost on my way back to Syracuse..... I am about to run over treat or treaters.......

6:25 pm: FINALLY ARRIVE HOME! knee brace and all.....

6:30pm: Go to an amazing dinner at Empire Brewery....

at least it had a happy ending

xoxo A

The Beginning of the End

Soooo here we are. End of November, my cabaret is over, and rehearsals have begun. And it's starting to hit me that school is really almost over. Like... FOREVER! after Dec. 9th.... I will never attend a college class again.

Why is it when we reach a point like this in our lives, we tend to look back on all the negative things or all the things we didn't do? Maybe it's just me... I'm looking back on my time here at Syracuse and thinking about all the stuff I could have done or done better. And I guess I just realized, I do this to myself all the time.

To quote a song: "You gotta accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative, latch on to the affirmitive, don't mess with mister in between."

I'm really gonna try to live by this. I realized I get too negative to quickly. Now I am looking back and thinking of all the wonderful amazing things that have happened to me. I have met some of the most important people in my life! I have learned so much! I have like hey grown up!!!!

It was kind of twisted... I was in the locker room and two freshman were talking and I overheard one of them say they were so "intimidated by Seniors." Is it wrong I smiled? I don't want to intimidate anyone or anything. I smiled cause I remember when that was me!!!!

It seems like only yesterday I was a freshman sometimes..... but then I remember how far I have come.

OY! here we go

XOXO
A

Finally Can Breathe

I know, it's been forever......


These past couple weeks have been pretty cray cray I must say... I feel like I can actually breathe for a moment and post something.  Let's reflect on senior year so far......

3 ballet classes actually has not been that difficult.... the hardest part is waking up at 7am... but i have been doing quite well. My History class has been incredibly interesting (yes I am a nerd). Scene study I think is going well. And I am even enjoying voice lessons!

I love my voice teacher a ridiculous amount. But if you know me... you know my confidence in my singing is a tad lacking. But the past couple lessons have been very positive, especially for soprano singing which is AWESOME!

I have been having some pretty good times with my loverlies..... some great times in the C-land too.

I was talking with Lizzy tonight and we realized we have 10 weeks left in school, we then hopped and danced around our living room for a good 5 minutes. Yup, the terror of the real world hasn't hit me yet. any bets as til when it will? if your close I'll get you a prize, maybe we could get a pool going?????

My cabaret is coming along pretty well! Save the date Oct 23rd at 24th at 7:30pm. In rep with my life partner Dawn Capitan Rother!

I think I'll actually start posting interesting things from now on.... this was just a catch-up post

xoxo

A

So it begins.... Senior year

hey guys
 
So tomorrow is my first day being a Senior in college. I'm nervous, I'm excited, and my teeth frickin hurt!

Yeah- this whole wisdom teeth removal thing sucks and not the ideal way to begin my school year!

Being a Senior means a lot... to me anyway... this semester is about getting what I need before entering the real world. Time to just jump in with both feet, unafraid.


I always feel like I have something to prove, someone to impress. I really hope I leave that behind.... I know I can do this, I have people who believe in me.... that's all I need.

My mom said something cool today. I asked her if it was crazy to take 3 Ballet classes this semester... and she said... "It's just 15 weeks, you can do anything for 15 weeks!"  And i thought...yeah I can. I will push myself to the edge for 15 weeks and just go balls to the wall. It won't kill me... it's just 15 weeks.

I plan to make these 15  weeks pretty memorable... stay tuned ;-)



XOXO A

Death to the Zero Sum

Being a girl is Musical Theatre basically sucks. It sucks because there are just so many of us who want the same things. And yes, everyone is special and has a unique gift to give, but generally speaking there are 500 girls out there right now who look and sound just like me.

This can be totally terrifying!!!! Not just professionally but personally as well. I live with 3 MT girls full time.... and most of my friends are in this business too. How is this possible? Can you really confide in someone and trust them when we are all desperate for the same jobs? Can you truly get total support? Will you ever feel confident that, when something great happens to you, your friends are really happy for you?

From experience, it's frickin hard. I am blessed to have so many incredibly talented people in my life. I am also so blessed to have amzing friends who i feel totally suuported by! ( I got soooo lucky) And I love all them.  I am honestly, 100%, so happy for them with all of their accomplishments. But I'll admit it goes against my instincts to not be competitive. And this is when I'm still in school, and paying my rent isn't on the line!!!! HELP!

I know I'm not the only girl who feels this way so no judging!!!

Here's the key to overcoming this is..... KILL THE ZERO SUM!

zero-sum rule: In game theory and economic theory, a zero-sum game is a mathematical representation of a situation in which a participant's gain or loss is exactly balanced by the losses or gains of the other participant(s). If the total gains of the participants are added up, and the total losses are subtracted, they will sum to zero. (wiki definition)

example: if there are 10 apples.... we each have 5 of them..... then i get another one.... that means I have 6 and you now only have 4.... 

So here's what I realized recently and now has become a daily mantra. "Success is not a zero-sum game!"

If someone is becoming successful that does not take away from you in any way! There is room for everyone on Broadway!

So the next time your BFF gets a job, remember that having triple threat friends only makes you look more triple threat!

And the next time your boy's ex gets a fierce job, remember that it doesn't mean you can't get just as good of a job tomorrow!

This business is tough enough.... let's be there for each other ladies!

xoxo

A

Here We Go

So here we go.... I now have a blog! Cool..... I think. Ya know.... this will actually be a great way for all my friends to keep up with me! Especially once I moved to the NYC. So yeah--- check up on me. Count on some funny stories, angsty venting, and all around craziness :)


xoxo A